I never understood smoking, what's so attractive about sticking a paper tube stuffed with a dead plant amongst tons of chemicals in your mouth?
I don't smoke. I dip. I blame the redneck in me. After all, I do live in Georgia.
Smokers say dipping is more disgusting, those who do smokeless tobacco say smoking is worse.
I know they're both disgusting habits, and I could quit if I wanted to. What I thought was nicotine withdrawal, I realized later, turned out to be just a caffeine crash. I thought it was withdrawal because I was REALLY angry and that never happens when I crash on caffeine. It was weird.
Anyway, I do it because it relaxes me. It's my dirty little secret and that makes me feel good, I don't know why. And I know the damage smokeless tobacco can do, which is why I don't plan on doing it forever. I have a friend who has done it since the 5th grade (he's a 10th grader now) and he has serious gum loss.
But tonight, this girl who is a heavy smoker started giving me some long lecture about how disgusting dip is, that she'd never kiss someone who had a pinch in, et cetera. And I KNOW how bad it is. She acts like she knows all about my habit. I do it three times a week, maybe four, normally skipping weeks so my lips and gums don't hurt. I've gone through two cans since July, where some people can do that in a week.
And shit, I wouldn't kiss someone who had a pinch in, either! I wouldn't kiss someone if I had one in, or if I hadn't brushed my teeth since I last had one. It's gross!
It's just stupid and irritating. My personal opinion is that smoking is, by far, more disgusting. When you smoke, you smell like an ash tray, your teeth turn yellow and black and all those other disgusting colors, your clothes, hair, and skin smell terrible and turn colors, and you cough like you've been in a coal mine for three years. There's tar in your lungs, you can't breathe, and your stamina suffers big time, and you're more susceptible to respiratory diseases.
I'm not saying dip is 'safer' or 'less gross.' It's still disgusting and a dangerous habit. But it mainly affects your mouth. It hasn't begun to visually damage me yet. It's personal preference as to whether I'd rather lose my teeth and jaw or my lungs and throat.
I know I should quit. But I don't want to. Not that I can't, I just don't want to. Not yet.