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Son of a bitch, Alex, I had forgotten about that. Although, I DID just listen to it all the way through for the first time. That was special.

PP: My entire body hurts ;-;

AP: After the hell that was Wednesday and Thursday, tonight was a refreshingly easy work night. I've racked up nearly 35 hours in three days, and still have two more full days left this week. Oh, hello overtime. Of COURSE you can join my normal pay on the check. We'll be glad to have you.

I feel ya, Syn. I really only hang out with one person ever since I moved back home, and even then I'm not getting to see him much because work has gotten busier, and ever since he got his promotion, he works more at one of our other locations :/ My bestest friends ever live too far away. One I only get to see every other month, and the other is married and lives in another state, so...bleh.

PP: Someone broke my favorite purple lighter at work by dropping it, and when I stooped down to pick it up, my pants split up the crotch. Thank God I was wearing an apron all night.

That...just...that. Damn, Log.

On the topic of being perpetually single, I have never been in a relationship. Ever. The closest I've been were a couple "I like you, you like me, but neither of us are going to say anything about it until one of us has moved on" situations. I mean, I like to think I'd be an adequate boyfriend, y'know? Yeah, I'm kind of a fatass, but I don't think I'm ugly, and I'm pretty fucking awesome. Shit, as much as I do just for my best friend, any girl who dates me would be spoiled as fuck. I love doing shit for people I care about, I'm funny(ish), I'm friendly(ish), and GODDAMN can I cuddle. I cuddle like a motherfucker. I'm all about that shit.

One of the worst parts, though, is when people come to ME for advice on their relationships. MOTHERFUCKER I DON'T KNOW. I HAVE NO EXPERIENCE IN THAT DEPARTMENT.

...-ahem- anyway

PP: I have worked 26 hours in two consecutive days, and I've still got three days left in this work week. I'm gonna be tired as shit. But that paycheck will be pretty awesome.

PP2: I've decided to change my diet and start getting healthier so I can look and feel better about myself. Part of which means giving up soda. Which means caffeine withdrawal from hell.

PP: I'm too nice for my own good.

Quiet, young'un. Your elders are talking.

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Ben? Really? Because when he said "let me go", I just said "okay." And waited until I got the option to drop his happy ass. He was a collossal fuck up and did a pretty good job of endangering EVERYONE ALL THE TIME. And he was stealing the supplies and got Carley killed.

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I get that, but the way I saw it, he was just a scared, stupid teenager. He was stealing the supplies because he thought they had his friend alive, and honestly, I think the bandits would have attacked sooner had he not been giving them stuff, so really, he was delaying the inevitable in my eyes. And I don't blame him for Carley eating a bullet. Lilly was going apeshit, all because Kenny saltlicked her dad, and Carley, as much as I absolutely loved her, was kind of getting all up in a crazy woman's shit when said crazy woman had a gun. As for Ben being a fuckup...okay, yeah, you got me there. Still, saving him is TOTALLY worth watching him shut Kenny the fuck up. That, and Clemmy liked him. Clemmy's word is law.

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Dude, Ben/Kenny's reconciliation/death was heartbreaking.

And I totally get both the Christa + Omid hope AND the OTP.  

*brofist*

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I KNOW RIGHT. Watching Ben trying to insist he was ok and Kenny finally think about someone other than himself for a change...bitch tears manly tears.

Also in my headcannon, when Christa finally has that baby she did such a shitty job of hiding, if it's a boy, they're totally gonna name it Lee. Calling it.

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I just kept going MOTHERFUCKER CLEMMY AND I DIDN'T TAKE YOUR SHIT. EVERYONE WHO DID IS ALREADY DEAD. Well, except for Lilly, since she kind of ends up in Woodbury, but anyway. I cried when Ben died, because I actually liked Ben and seeing him go in such a way broke my heart. Then I cried when Clemmy saw her parents. THEN I cried the whole time Lee was guiding Clemmy through what to do, along with holding on to my controller so hard that my knuckles had gone white, especially when she started with that bonechilling childish screaming, ugh. That shit was intense. And then that fucking beautiful country song came on in the credits, and I couldn't really turn the waterworks off. I REALLY hope that the two figures in the distance were Christa and Omid, because I had entrusted Clemmy to them, and they grew on me quickly.

And because I'm lame, I'm at least happy that Lee and Carley are together again, because fuck you I don't have to defend my OTP shut up.

PP: I've become a cynical bastard. I give no shits about my birthday in a few weeks. I don't really care about Christmas this year. I'm realizing that I actually really don't like my job as much as I say I do. I only want to finish school because it is expected of me and I want my family to shut up. And I drink a lot. Though, I kind of like that last part.

Oh Log, buddy...It'll be okay. Clemmy will be okay. Clemmy will...be okay...

I cried like a little bitch.

Currently playing Bully and rather enjoying it. I've also got Dark Souls, Kingdoms of Amalur, and both Batman: Arkham games waiting to be beaten. Damned Black Friday sales, causing me to buy more games than I can play...

AP: A 40, a pack of Camels, and the realization that after one or two more paychecks, I'll be free of debt. Have a drink, light up a smoke, and celebrate with me.

PP: I've been working for nearly two years to tackle a debt owed to the college I attended that prevented me from re-enrolling for more classes. As of today, I have maybe one or two payments left before it will be paid in full and I can go back to school. Now, this part is wonderful news, as it will be a huge weight off my shoulders. The problem is that I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself once I've finally made my last payment.

The school I went to is three hours away from where I live now. I don't think I should have any issues enrolling again, and my best friend is offering to be my roommate and help me get a job, but I'm still worried about cost of living, especially since I don't think my parents are going to help me out this time around. ESPECIALLY not if I'm living with my friend, since they kind of don't like him.

On the other hand, I'm living at home for free, and my only bill is car insurance. I have a job that I'm relatively happy with for now, so I'm pretty comfortable financially. Thing is, I'm miserable at home. I greatly appreciate what my parents are doing for me here, yes, but I'm so bored and lonely all the time. I have one friend that I hang out with, but other than that, work and facebook has become my social life. As far as school goes, the one I went to is notorious for being fairly stingy with transferring credits, so I don't want to have to pay for a lot of classes I've already taken at a new school, not to mention the higher tuition costs.

What it all boils down to is having to make the decision between taking the easy route and remain stuck at home, or taking the riskier route to get what I want: a change of scenery and a sense of completion when I graduate from where I started. Oh, and being able to see a lot of my best friends more than once every few months. That would be pretty awesome, too. The time to make the decision is rapidly approaching, and it's making me freak the hell out.

AP: I got one of the adorable waitresses at work to listen to Smell Yo Dick. We're going to start performing duets in the kitchen.

AP: Last night:
-9-10 beers
-2 ciders
-red wine
-3 kinds of whiskeys (one was 10 years old Laphroaig)
-köllikkä shot 
-Suomi (32%)
-Salmarikoskenkorva (32%)

Either i'm still drunk or my alcohol resistance is stuff of legends.

-bows down-

So far I have never been that lucky.

It happens! I've lucked up about three or four times now. Just gotta look for the slips then hope you pick a winner...much like playing the lottery, only not as much as a waste of time.