Ah, you didn't do anything Magic. I just have been... out of sorts and I just, heaved a sigh.
I really shouldn't have said anything, and that was just kinda passive aggressive and I don't like doing that, because that's not how I like to roll. Things have been a bit rough here and everything kinda caved in, and that was the straw kinda thing. I guess.
I have been trying really hard to get pages done, meet deadlines, and make enough money for all the life things, and have been under a lot of stress and pressure. Greg recently had to get his wisdom's pulled because of an infection (where Murphy got to fuck with him, I swear husband has the worst luck, long story short: he ended up being awake for the entire procedure, had over 16 shots of Novocaine, roots hooked like J's so much that they kept them to show other doc's, and an abscessed teeth that couldn't be frozen that was pulled.) And that has put us back a bit financially. Not to mention the cost overruns of the book, plus the cost of replacing the lost/returned books wound up putting us in a huge financial hole. We've lost shedloads of money on the books, at this point, so we had to take out credit to finance continued operations. Plus a plethora of other rather worrisome things that we are shakily recovering from. It's been a bad, bad, few months.
When you are under this kind of stress-- to have people dog on you and criticize you about not being able to perform up to their standards in any fashion--honestly gets frustrating, and really kills the morale, and you'll ind yourself in a "Why am I doing this again?" type of place, which sucks and I hate it there.
I genuinely like doing what I do. But I guess like everyone else in the world some day's you are just going to really hate your job.
I know it comes with the webcomic territory. When you are in this kind of industry it's a part of the job, so you can't let it get to you, and I have had some REALLY mean things said and done to me and brushed it off. But it feels like things sting more than other days, and today was just one of those days :/
So yeah! In other words, sorry for seeming like a grumpy biatch